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Colorquiz 06/13/08 [Jun. 13th, 2008|05:51 pm]

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Distanta [Apr. 29th, 2008|09:52 pm]
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Te apropii si distanta devine din ce in ce mai palpabila. Imi pari si mai copil, imi era dor de zambetul tau. De parul tau ciufulit. Incepe sa creasca. Esti retinut, se vede, ma cercetezi de la distanta. Iti primesc pe obraji saruturile amicale. Epiderma ma tine adunata in acelasi loc din fata ta. Ce sa-ti spun?
-Cum esti?
-Bine.
(Eu nu.)
Se intra. Ce bine ca se intra. Ce rau ca se intra.
Sunt trei locuri intre noi, tu esti departe, rog un barbat mai in varsta sa faca schimb de locuri sa pot sta langa tine.
-Sa am cu cine comenta in timpul piesei, justific eu zambind (Sa fiu mai aproape de tine)
-Nu e voie, ma certi tu.
(Stiu.)
Si piesa se joaca, si esti departe. La un moment dat te muti pe alt scaun, si mai departe, sa stai mai comod. Si piesa se termina, eu ies din sala mai repede, intre noi sunt oameni, si distanta. (Vezi, nu vreau sa fiu aproape de tine, sunt bine).
Stam fata in fata, cu distanta intre noi.
-Vin cu tine.
-Unde vii cu mine? (Hai cu mine!)
-Trebuie sa ajung pe strada J.
-Dar strada J. e in cartierul Z...(Nu vii cu mine.)
Mergem in directii diferite, asta stiam deja. (Ce departe esti...)
Te apropii si ma iei in brate. Epiderma ma tine adunata in bratele tale. Sunt pe varfuri (Esti atat de inalt, am uitat cat de inalt...), stau cu obrazul lipit de al tau. Pielea ta. Mirosul tau.
-Te-ai hotarat cu scolile? articulez eu din bratele tale. Bratele tale care ma tin aproape (Vezi, pot sa imi stapanesc emotiile.)
-Nu, scuturi din cap langa obrazul meu.
Imi dai drumul. (Nu-mi da drumul.) Si e iar distanta. Nu-mi amintesc cuvintele, te ating pe brat, gest "amical". Sa vezi ca sunt bine.
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Pablo Neruda - Love [Apr. 25th, 2008|09:12 pm]
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Because of you, in gardens of blossoming flowers I ache from the
perfumes of spring.
   I have forgotten your face, I no longer remember your hands;
how did your lips feel on mine?
   Because of you, I love the white statues drowsing in the parks,
the white statues that have neither voice nor sight.
   I have forgotten your voice, your happy voice; I have forgotten
your eyes.
   Like a flower to its perfume, I am bound to my vague memory of
you. I live with pain that is like a wound; if you touch me, you will
do me irreparable harm.
   Your caresses enfold me, like climbing vines on melancholy walls.
   I have forgotten your love, yet I seem to glimpse you in every
window.
   Because of you, the heady perfumes of summer pain me; because
of you, I again seek out the signs that precipitate desires: shooting
stars, falling objects.

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Nouvelle Vague - In a manner of speaking [Apr. 15th, 2008|12:11 pm]
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In a Manner of speaking
I just want to say
That I could never forget the way
You told me everything
By saying nothing

In a manner of speaking
I don't understand
How love in silence becomes reprimand
But the way that i feel about you
Is beyond words

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Ohohohoh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

In a manner of speaking
Semantics won't do
In this life that we live we only make do
And the way that we feel
Might have to be sacrificed

So in a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That just like you I should find a way
To tell you everything
By saying nothing.

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Ohohohoh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything
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Din "Before sunrise" [Feb. 29th, 2008|05:30 pm]
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Daydream, delusion, limousine, eyelash /
Oh baby with your pretty face /
Drop a tear in my wineglass /
Look at those big eyes /
See what you mean to me /
Sweet-cakes and milkshakes /
I'm delusion angel /
I'm fantasy parade /
I want you to know what I think /
Don't want you to guess anymore /
You have no idea where I came from /
We have no idea where we're going /
Latched in life /
Like branches in a river/
Flowing downstream /
Caught in the current /
I'll carry you /
You'll carry me /
That's how it could be /
Don't you know me? /
Don't you know me by now?
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Vise I [Jan. 14th, 2008|01:21 pm]
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1. Fugeam sa ma agat de o masina de gunoi, am reusit sa ma prind cu o mana de o bara de metal, in timp ce cu cealalta incercam sa protejez un cos de rachita plin cu oua. Majoritatea erau albe, de dimensiuni obisnuite (cat oul de gaina), doar trei erau negre, supradimensionate. M-am trezit fascinata.

2. Desfac un vis in doua, intr-o dezangajata incercare de coerenta. Fugeam printr-un hotel, insotita de un personaj feminin neidentificat, eram urmarite de...gangsteri. Nu-i vedeam, ii percepeam, ne era frica, fugeam. Am intrat intr-una din camere, patul dublu in mijloc, pozitionare tipica. Trag un sertar al patului aflat pe sectiunea transversala, in sertar, un om in flacari. Calm, fara dureri aparente. "Sa-l stingem!", a fost primul impuls. Simteam gangsterii apropiindu-se, asa ca am decis sa inchid la loc sertarul. M-am indreptat spre usa de la balcon, am iesit afara, m-am uitat in jos, nu distingeam nimic, decat un aer laptos, dens, sub nivelul nostru. Sub balcon, alte balcoane identice. Balconul de dedesubt, ca si celelalte, avea un iesind de piatra in partea stanga. "Pot face asta", m-am urcat pe margine si am sarit pe portiunea de piatra, urmata (cred) de personajul feminin. Am tot coborat, din balcon in balcon, pe bucati de piatra identice. Parca am ajuns jos.

Partea a doua. Eram in curte, sau intr-o curte ce putea fi exteriorul unei cladiri ce aducea a spital. Spatiu larg, imprejmuit de gard destul de indepartat, acoperit de iarba. Un petec dreptunghiular mi-a atras atentia; acolo, iarba, de un verde crud, deschis, era mai imbietoare. Vroiam sa fiu acolo, in petecul acela, sa ma tavalesc in iarba mustind de verde proaspat. Ma indreptam deja catre acel petec, cand observ un barbat pe bicicleta, apropiindu-se vertiginos. Trece prin petec si se opreste in fata mea. "Sa nu intri acolo". Ma pregateam sa fiu contrariata, cand teroarea s-a produs. Nu-mi amintesc gestul, miscarea, dar imi amintesc ca priveam oripilata cel mai ciudat penis. Avea forma unui peste (poate pui de somn), usor aplatizat, lat, cu gura de peste care incerca sa respire. Culoarea era la fel de terifianta: negru-indigo, de peste. Ultimul element m-a incremenit: deasupra si dedesubtul gurii care se misca, la mica distanta, se aflau doua siruri a cate trei bulbi, alb-galbui, cu cili albiciosi care la randul lor se miscau.
De curand intr-un restaurant, la o masa alaturata, cineva a comandat un peste negru-violet, cu tot cu cap. I-a fost servit cu garnitura de salata si lamaie. Care sa fie sansele sa comand vreodata asa ceva? :)
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Despre vise [Jan. 12th, 2008|08:10 pm]
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Ma trezesc cu vise si vorbind despre vise. Visez color si intens, visez profund simbolic- remarca unui bun prieten. In visele mele zbor, cad, sunt urmarita, rad, fug, omor. Nu mor niciodata, nu ma ranesc niciodata, nu-mi vad niciodata urmaritorii. Simt pericolul sub diverse forme, uneori persista pe parcursul intregului vis, alteori apare subit, intr-un petec de iarba verde-crud. Uneori povestesc cu diavolul, un diavol uimitor de amabil si binevoitor. Intelegator, empatic chiar. Ma folosesc de instrumente ciudate, am abilitati supra-umane. Cateodata mi-e teama, ca atunci cand visez sali de baie imense, insalubre, intr-o lumina verde albastruie. Sau cand propria mea imagine in oglinda, profund diferita dar identica cu mine insami, cade secerata pe dalele din baia insalubra din oglinda. Nu vreau sa le interpretez in nici un fel de grila de decodare/ interpretare, nu ma intereseaza scheme analitice sau psihanalitice. Vreau sa mi le amintesc, sa le pastrez memorabile.
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Floo-Too [May. 1st, 2006|10:24 pm]
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5:30 in the morning, struggling with my headache and my weary eyes...Suddenly I felt a movement behind me, I turn and I see this black cat, with white spots on her muzzle, front paws, staring at me with a silly look. She analyzes me, wants to haunt my hands under the blanket, I cool her down with gentle strokes on the soft fur between her ears and under her chin. It's a girl. She comes closer to my face and touches my nose with hers for 1/2 a second, she lets herself fall on my right arm, gets on her back, exposing the belly to my enthusiastic attention, purring trustfully and stretching from time to time her right paw to touch my cheek. Silly cat, why did you choose me?
I got up at 6 am and let her asleep in my bed. The girl that prepares the breakfast for the hostel's guests lets me know that Floo-Too can sleep only with somebody else next to her.
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Magnolias [Apr. 17th, 2006|10:59 pm]
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Myriads of white bells above me, magnolias in bloom, their scent took my senses by surprise. Tomorrow I want to find a secluded tree, climb and hide, until my pores are completely invaded by the opulent perfume.
My lips crave to be sealed with a light red magnolia.
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Roofs [Apr. 16th, 2006|01:28 pm]
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Fly with me over the roofs, the top of the roofs, fill my lungs with air when I impatiently lose my breath, take my hand as we pass over tree crowns. Remain silent by my left side.
Don’t shrug: we’ll trow bricks at people from the tallest building in Madison Square Garden.
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Wheat [Apr. 13th, 2006|09:46 am]
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I was descending rapidly, sliding down the stairs of my castle, afraid I might fall. I plunged in a field of ripe wheat that seemed to grow taller as I was swimming through, with the touch of grains like water droplets on my body.
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Disappointment [Mar. 17th, 2006|10:38 pm]
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Wouldn't you prefer hatred to indifference? Red waves of rage to neat surfaces of disinterest and apathy? You slide down on the icy surfaces of the ones you've betrayed. Checklist: love-done, abandonment-done, disillusion-done, insensitivity-checked! Please remind me, did I miss anything?
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